untitled letter to this universe.

Here I am (again and again). I am full of anger right now. I've been in this dark place like thousand times, and I still do not know how to escape from the evil side of this universe. I yelled to this world, million times, but it seemed like it did not hear my sickening complains. I don't know, I don't fucking really know why it keeps driving me insane. Can this world just let me slip away? did I do something wrong? where? can this world just whisper to me where I went wrong instead of punishing me over and over again. I'm tired. I really am tired of this curse. It may seems simple, yet it takes my serenity away. There are a lot of people which live with similar case as me, but they can escape from it quickly, so why can't I get the same chance as them?

Did I do something bad in the previous life? or maybe this universe hates me so fucking much? why they torture me this bad? why God gives me so much pain which I cannot handle mentally? don't I deserve what I deserve? can somebody tell me why? can anything heal me? 

I do understand. Maybe I take this case seriously, but again, it happens for many years. I'm just sad. okay?

just let me. 

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